i do miss you. i am sorry. i didn't ever think we would end up this way. i want it all back, even if it includes that dumb little dog of yours. and i know i wasnt there as much as i should have been. and i know i blamed a lot on you. i know i just never felt worthy enough, good enough to be a huge part of your life. i felt like i was on a different stage, and i want to be back where we were.

i miss you too, and i am sorry too.

I may never know how it feels to stand beside you

Or take your hand when I need some direction

And I may never know what it's like to see you smile back at me

Or know you'd be proud of me