i've come to realize....

I've come to realize that when I talk:

I feel like I can’t get enough out to really show the truth

I've come to realize that I love:

not nearly as much as i could when i need too, and too much when i shouldn't

I've come to realize that I need:

to believe in redemption, because if I don’t I have nothing

I've come to realize that I lost:

myself in a bottle, but am changing everyday

I've come to realize that I hate it when:

girls don’t think they are good enough

I've come to realize that I'll always be::

a little girl that grew up on an island and misses home

I've come to realize that I have a crush on::

my gorgeous husband

I've come to realize that the last time I cried was::

when someone told me a truth that hurts to much to realize

I've come to realize that my cell phone is::

now safe to use

I've come to realize that when I wake up in the morning:

I work out.

I've come to realize that before I go to sleep at night I::

pray for my friends who lost husbands last year, tell myself I did good today, kiss stuart 3 times

I've come to realize that right now I am thinking about::

home and the 50 days between now and when I get to see Lydia

I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook::

I hate it more and more

I've come to realize that today I will::

try to let it all go.

I've come to realize that tonight I will::

sleep soundly and safely..."for He who promised, is faithful"

I've come to realize that tomorrow ::

is going to be “Special Barclee Day’” :)

I've come to realize that I really want to::

get away for a bit, forgive, heal, leave

I've come to realize relationships::

mean forgiveness and commitment no matter what happens

I've come to realize love::

does not hurt and if it does, it is not love.

I've come to realize my best girl friend(s)::

deserve more than I give them

I've come to realize music to me:

is what gets me through the bad nights

“how long you have traveled in darkness weeping

no rest in language, no words to speak

but there in the wreckage beneath bricks and bindings

love has come, love has come for you
so lift up your heart now, to this unfolding

all that has been broken will be restored

here runs deep waters for all who are thirsty

love has come, love has come for you”

I've come to realize girls/boys::

need to learn to love.

I've come to realize over the summer::

i plan on living the way i was meant too, and becoming much more tanned than i am now

I've come to realize heartbreak::
comes from leaving. And leaving can be an amazing thing. Love the leave.